It's another normal night in the Wade house. The election discussion is blaring in the living room, and I'm trying to drown it out with a little Norah Jones radio on Pandora. I just feel like writing tonight for some reason, so I don't really know what will become of this post... probably just more of the endless rants that I tend to have sometimes.
I'm so incredibly sick of high school. I need a new change of pace. College cannot come fast enough for me. With that I said, I will miss my friends that I have now. My group of friends isn't exactly the biggest, meaning I can count the true ones on one hand. I just don't like change, but I'm so ready for it to come. I'm getting anxious and antsy about where I'm going to go to school. I have my sights set on Campbell; I just have to make sure I have the money for it. So, if you don't mind, please be praying for me for that. I felt so at home when I visited there in September. God keeps opening doors for it though, so I'm just trying to stay obedient to His will.
The holidays are so close I can taste them. It's been so cold on the coast lately. I feel like I'm living up North. I don't want to complain about it though because I absolutely love cold weather. I've been drinking coffee like crazy, craving soup every day, and wanting to cuddle every chance I get. That's what I love so much about Fall... it brings everyone closer, even if only for a time. Plus, my boy is the best cuddler, so it's a win-win situation for me. :)
Speaking of my boy, I have these moments sometimes when I get a text or a call from him and look at the name that pops up on my phone, I sit there and think, "Al Rising is my boyfriend?" I don't know if that happens to anyone else, but even after all this time, it still makes me stop for a second. I don't know how many of you readers have ever had a dream come true that you wanted with all of your heart, but that's what happened to me when Al and I started dating. It was, and still is, a dream come true. I know I'm a youngin and whatnot, but who says how old you have to be to fall in love? Who says how old you have to be to find that one person that makes you never want to look back? All I know is God has the plan for my life. He has opened so many doors for Al and me, and I'm going to continue following Him. I've been so blessed to have a man in my life that is so kind to me. He's thoughtful, loving, and generous. I don't deserve him at all, but I'm so lucky to have him. He'll never know how much I love him, but I can guess that I'll never know how much he loves me either.
Well, for now that's all I can think to write about. I just needed a distraction for a while. I should probably go do something, like homework. But then again, procrastination is my middle name. I'll get it done anyway. Thanks for reading! I'll be posting again soon.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Senior 2013
Hello readers! It has been over a month since I've posted anything. As a senior, so much can happen in such a short period of time. Currently, it's a Saturday night, and I'm laying at home due to Hurricane Sandy. Apparently, it's going to be a pretty bad storm. I love rain, though, so it's been a perfect day for me. Let me hash out the going-ons of the last month and a half.
Well, on October 6, I had a dream come true. I was accepted to Campbell University. When I toured there I fell in love on the spot, and when I received my acceptance letter, I was too excited for words. So excited that since then I have yet to apply to another college. I'm working on that part though (I finished my application to ECU today.) They gave me a pretty big chunk of money, but I still have a lot to go to be able to afford to go there. However, I know if this is the place God wants me to go, He will provide the opportunities for the money. I don't doubt in God's plan for me.
I've been overwhelmed with school and scholarships and clubs. As much as we want it to sometimes, life doesn't ever slow down. I like having all the responsiblities I have though. It gives me something to do and allows me to get to know people I normally wouldn't be able to. I've been steadily working on my senior project. Hopefully I'll get it done before the due date. Procrastination is my middle name, but I know I'll get it done. Somehow I always do.
On October 19, I went to Charlotte, North Carolina with a few members of my youth group for an Apologetics Conference. Pretty much that is just learning how to defend your faith. I learned an overwhelming amount of information. God works in such awesome ways that it's hard to comprehend sometimes. I believe, now more than ever, that God is real and He is alive and steady at work in my life. He has allowed my eyes and heart to be opened to parts of the world that I have never seen before. He is always preparing me for ways to talk to people who are skeptical of Him. As a Christian, I know how important it is to live in a way that shows Jesus to other people. I don't ever want to be the reason that someone will never believe in God because they saw what I said I lived for, but I never really lived like it.
I'm working on worrying less and praying more. God has put some obstacles in my life lately that I know He is using to make me put my faith fully in Him. Prayer has got to become an active part of my life. God has got to become an active part of my life. I'm tired of being worried and anxious and upset all the time. There is no need to be when God is the One holding my life in His hands. He has never let me down. That's something I have to remember.
My dad and my aunt flew out to Mississippi today to spend some time with my Pops. Tomorrow is my sweet Maw-Maw's birthday. She passed away this year, and it has been a hard time on all of us. She was the glue in our family. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is in Heaven with my awesome Savior. I just wish I could see her sometimes, but I know that I'll see her again, along with my granddaddy. I'm so lucky to have the assurance in my heart that I get to spend eternity with Jesus and all my family members. I pray so much for my family members who don't know Him that they will know Him before it's too late. God's grace is surrounding all of us right now, and all we have to do is accept it. That's a prayer we should all be praying. For the lost souls.
My life is always going to be hectic, I've come to accept. I'm ready for all of it though. I'm halfway through the first semester of my senior year. It's crazy how fast time is flying by. I'm ready to graduate, but I'm not ready to leave. I know I have to experience the world though, and that's something I can't wait to do. Well, that's all I have for tonight. Thanks for reading!
Well, on October 6, I had a dream come true. I was accepted to Campbell University. When I toured there I fell in love on the spot, and when I received my acceptance letter, I was too excited for words. So excited that since then I have yet to apply to another college. I'm working on that part though (I finished my application to ECU today.) They gave me a pretty big chunk of money, but I still have a lot to go to be able to afford to go there. However, I know if this is the place God wants me to go, He will provide the opportunities for the money. I don't doubt in God's plan for me.
I've been overwhelmed with school and scholarships and clubs. As much as we want it to sometimes, life doesn't ever slow down. I like having all the responsiblities I have though. It gives me something to do and allows me to get to know people I normally wouldn't be able to. I've been steadily working on my senior project. Hopefully I'll get it done before the due date. Procrastination is my middle name, but I know I'll get it done. Somehow I always do.
On October 19, I went to Charlotte, North Carolina with a few members of my youth group for an Apologetics Conference. Pretty much that is just learning how to defend your faith. I learned an overwhelming amount of information. God works in such awesome ways that it's hard to comprehend sometimes. I believe, now more than ever, that God is real and He is alive and steady at work in my life. He has allowed my eyes and heart to be opened to parts of the world that I have never seen before. He is always preparing me for ways to talk to people who are skeptical of Him. As a Christian, I know how important it is to live in a way that shows Jesus to other people. I don't ever want to be the reason that someone will never believe in God because they saw what I said I lived for, but I never really lived like it.
I'm working on worrying less and praying more. God has put some obstacles in my life lately that I know He is using to make me put my faith fully in Him. Prayer has got to become an active part of my life. God has got to become an active part of my life. I'm tired of being worried and anxious and upset all the time. There is no need to be when God is the One holding my life in His hands. He has never let me down. That's something I have to remember.
My dad and my aunt flew out to Mississippi today to spend some time with my Pops. Tomorrow is my sweet Maw-Maw's birthday. She passed away this year, and it has been a hard time on all of us. She was the glue in our family. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is in Heaven with my awesome Savior. I just wish I could see her sometimes, but I know that I'll see her again, along with my granddaddy. I'm so lucky to have the assurance in my heart that I get to spend eternity with Jesus and all my family members. I pray so much for my family members who don't know Him that they will know Him before it's too late. God's grace is surrounding all of us right now, and all we have to do is accept it. That's a prayer we should all be praying. For the lost souls.
My life is always going to be hectic, I've come to accept. I'm ready for all of it though. I'm halfway through the first semester of my senior year. It's crazy how fast time is flying by. I'm ready to graduate, but I'm not ready to leave. I know I have to experience the world though, and that's something I can't wait to do. Well, that's all I have for tonight. Thanks for reading!
Monday, September 10, 2012
Happy Day!
Hello loves! I've been feeling so encouraged lately, and I just wanted to share some of that encouragement with you! Senior year has been absolutely crazy, but I wouldn't change it. Although it has been a breeze, I feel the stress catching up to me. Senior projects, homework, college applications.... my head is spinning. I guess it's that time of year for every senior though. At least I'm not suffering alone
On a positive note, my mom and I went to tour Campbell University on Saturday, and it's officical... I want to call it my home next year. That's exactly what it felt like to me: home. I could see myself there for the next four years. I fell absolutely in love. God willing it will continue to work out. I know He has many plans for me. I'm so excited for whatever my future holds, Campbell or something else. I'm just excited, and I really can't wait. This last year of high school will be torture for me because I'm so in love with Campbell. I just want to be in college already. Senioritis is taking over! Ahhhh! Save me!
I would also like to say that I have been so blessed in my life. God has given me the truest friends I could have ever asked for. My friends are so wonderful to me, even when I don't deserve it. This last year with them is going to be hard. Every time I start to think about graduation and moving on, it breaks my heart. My class is one-of-a-kind, and that's one thing that will be tough to let go of. Senior year is about making memories, and I've already been doing that with the intention of making more.
Also, on Wednesday, I'm going on a date with my sweet boy. We've been best friends for 2 years. That's something I've always loved about us: It's so important to us to remember that we were best friends first, and that friendship is what lead us to where we are. Our friendship is more important to me than this whole year of our relationship, because our friendship is what made us into the couple we are. I couldn't be more thankful or blessed with the man of God that I'm totally captivated by. It just keeps getting better.
So, as you can see, I have been uplifted lately. I've been happy and encouraged, and I hope the same for everyone reading this. If not, and if there's any way I can help, just let me know. I will do my best. Even if that means all I can do is pray, I will do that. Praying makes all the difference. Thank you for reading this! I hope you have a wonderful night!
On a positive note, my mom and I went to tour Campbell University on Saturday, and it's officical... I want to call it my home next year. That's exactly what it felt like to me: home. I could see myself there for the next four years. I fell absolutely in love. God willing it will continue to work out. I know He has many plans for me. I'm so excited for whatever my future holds, Campbell or something else. I'm just excited, and I really can't wait. This last year of high school will be torture for me because I'm so in love with Campbell. I just want to be in college already. Senioritis is taking over! Ahhhh! Save me!
I would also like to say that I have been so blessed in my life. God has given me the truest friends I could have ever asked for. My friends are so wonderful to me, even when I don't deserve it. This last year with them is going to be hard. Every time I start to think about graduation and moving on, it breaks my heart. My class is one-of-a-kind, and that's one thing that will be tough to let go of. Senior year is about making memories, and I've already been doing that with the intention of making more.
Also, on Wednesday, I'm going on a date with my sweet boy. We've been best friends for 2 years. That's something I've always loved about us: It's so important to us to remember that we were best friends first, and that friendship is what lead us to where we are. Our friendship is more important to me than this whole year of our relationship, because our friendship is what made us into the couple we are. I couldn't be more thankful or blessed with the man of God that I'm totally captivated by. It just keeps getting better.
So, as you can see, I have been uplifted lately. I've been happy and encouraged, and I hope the same for everyone reading this. If not, and if there's any way I can help, just let me know. I will do my best. Even if that means all I can do is pray, I will do that. Praying makes all the difference. Thank you for reading this! I hope you have a wonderful night!
Friday, August 3, 2012
One of My Famous Rambles...
Well hello there, readers. It feels like it has been such a long time since I've taken the time to sit down and blog. Although I don't get to every day, I feel like this is a coping mechanism for life for me. Writing has always been an escape of sorts for me. I can write down what I'm feeling and thinking better than I would ever be able to express it in a conversation. So, for anyone who takes the time to read this tonight, I'm sorry. This post will be the resting place of all the nonsense that has gone on in my life for the past few weeks. Be prepared, and don't say I didn't warn you. :)
Well, the month of July was absolutely hectic for me. I feel like after every July 4th the summer just flies by. That is exactly what happened this summer anyway. I went to Ohio with my aunt and cousin the week after the 4th. In a previous post I explained all about that. It was an interesting trip to say the least. But hey, we didn't get lost a single time, and we all got to spend some quality time with one another. I think that's something we take for granted. We so often pass up the opportunity to spend time with the ones we love, not realizing that someday we don't get the chance to do so. I'm glad I was able to spend that week with two people I love very much. I wouldn't have traded the 28 hour round trip for anything. Family first.
After that I had a very reviving week of vacation bible school at my church. It was renewing, but it was also a very stressful time in my life. I was definitely feeling pressured to be someone that everyone wanted me to be, not someone that God wanted me to be. I'm not the most obedient person when it comes to God's will, that's one of my big faults, but I try not to be a completely different person than what He wants for me. I felt like I had to be this big shot Christian, going around preaching to people about the Gospel, when in reality I know that I don't even understand enough about the Gospel to tell anyone else about it. I was so stressed because of this, but I know it was God's way of telling me that in order to be the person who can speak in front of a crowd, I have to take the time to really get to know Him and His word first. So little by little, that's what I'm trying to do. I'm at a point, though, where I feel like I've become a lukewarm Christian. In all honesty, I don't know if that's what I am, but I feel like I've become very lazy. God himself says He will vomit the lukewarm Christians out of His mouth on the day of judgement. I just don't want that to be me. I don't want that to be anyone. I feel like I'm failing in a way. But I know God has a plan for my life. As much as I worry all the time, I never worry that God doesn't have a plan for me because He does. He has a plan for all of us.
During that week of big changes in my spiritual life, I also had a big change in my personal life. My boyfriend, who is a wonderful man of God, and I decided to take a break. We felt like we were holding each other back from growing in our relationships with God. To this day, I feel like that is true. However, at the time we thought the only way we could get closer to Him was to break up. That was a really rough night for me and him. We both really struggled. We got a lot of great advice from people who care about us, and we made the decision to grow together. It doesn't make you any holier to be focused on God and single. You should focus on God ALL THE TIME. Our relationship has had some major changes in the past few weeks. I won't say that we haven't struggled because we have. But we're going to work it out. God will work it out the way He sees fit. All I know is I love the boy with all my heart. I know I will always love him, whether we're together or apart. I want what is absolutely best for him because he deserves it. Any decisions we make in the future will be okay with me because he's my best friend. As long as I have that, I know things will be alright.
After that, I really had to start focusing on my senior year of high school. It's so hard to believe that in just a few short weeks I will start my last first day of school. It has come so quickly that I don't even know where the time has gone. It seems like just yesterday I was in eighth grade, scared out of my mind to go to high school. Now I'm THE upperclassman. I'm so lucky to have such a loving and supporting class. We have our fights and disagreements, but at the end of the day we support each other. In just a few short months we'll be saying goodbye for the last time and setting off on our new journeys. To all the people in my class, we better make this year count. We won't ever get it back. I love you guys.
So now in the month of August, I'm preparing for school to start, which means actually doing my summer reading. I'm going to be busy moving my sister into college (how crazy!) and I'll be spending time with my lovely boyfriend and best friend in the process of all those things. My anniversary is coming up this Wednesday and the boy and I will be heading out to do something fun. I'm really looking forward to it. I need a fun night. I'm hoping to attend a great Christian concert next Friday, and I hope to continue to grow with my Savior. I will also be taking my senior pictures with my best friend, which is so bittersweet. Whatever this year holds I will be open to the changes, including any changes that come within myself.
I just had to get all this off my chest before I exploded. Thank you for taking the time to read this, you brave soul. Hopefully I didn't scare you off, and you'll continue to read my blog the next time I post. I hope you have a blessed night!
Well, the month of July was absolutely hectic for me. I feel like after every July 4th the summer just flies by. That is exactly what happened this summer anyway. I went to Ohio with my aunt and cousin the week after the 4th. In a previous post I explained all about that. It was an interesting trip to say the least. But hey, we didn't get lost a single time, and we all got to spend some quality time with one another. I think that's something we take for granted. We so often pass up the opportunity to spend time with the ones we love, not realizing that someday we don't get the chance to do so. I'm glad I was able to spend that week with two people I love very much. I wouldn't have traded the 28 hour round trip for anything. Family first.
After that I had a very reviving week of vacation bible school at my church. It was renewing, but it was also a very stressful time in my life. I was definitely feeling pressured to be someone that everyone wanted me to be, not someone that God wanted me to be. I'm not the most obedient person when it comes to God's will, that's one of my big faults, but I try not to be a completely different person than what He wants for me. I felt like I had to be this big shot Christian, going around preaching to people about the Gospel, when in reality I know that I don't even understand enough about the Gospel to tell anyone else about it. I was so stressed because of this, but I know it was God's way of telling me that in order to be the person who can speak in front of a crowd, I have to take the time to really get to know Him and His word first. So little by little, that's what I'm trying to do. I'm at a point, though, where I feel like I've become a lukewarm Christian. In all honesty, I don't know if that's what I am, but I feel like I've become very lazy. God himself says He will vomit the lukewarm Christians out of His mouth on the day of judgement. I just don't want that to be me. I don't want that to be anyone. I feel like I'm failing in a way. But I know God has a plan for my life. As much as I worry all the time, I never worry that God doesn't have a plan for me because He does. He has a plan for all of us.
During that week of big changes in my spiritual life, I also had a big change in my personal life. My boyfriend, who is a wonderful man of God, and I decided to take a break. We felt like we were holding each other back from growing in our relationships with God. To this day, I feel like that is true. However, at the time we thought the only way we could get closer to Him was to break up. That was a really rough night for me and him. We both really struggled. We got a lot of great advice from people who care about us, and we made the decision to grow together. It doesn't make you any holier to be focused on God and single. You should focus on God ALL THE TIME. Our relationship has had some major changes in the past few weeks. I won't say that we haven't struggled because we have. But we're going to work it out. God will work it out the way He sees fit. All I know is I love the boy with all my heart. I know I will always love him, whether we're together or apart. I want what is absolutely best for him because he deserves it. Any decisions we make in the future will be okay with me because he's my best friend. As long as I have that, I know things will be alright.
After that, I really had to start focusing on my senior year of high school. It's so hard to believe that in just a few short weeks I will start my last first day of school. It has come so quickly that I don't even know where the time has gone. It seems like just yesterday I was in eighth grade, scared out of my mind to go to high school. Now I'm THE upperclassman. I'm so lucky to have such a loving and supporting class. We have our fights and disagreements, but at the end of the day we support each other. In just a few short months we'll be saying goodbye for the last time and setting off on our new journeys. To all the people in my class, we better make this year count. We won't ever get it back. I love you guys.
So now in the month of August, I'm preparing for school to start, which means actually doing my summer reading. I'm going to be busy moving my sister into college (how crazy!) and I'll be spending time with my lovely boyfriend and best friend in the process of all those things. My anniversary is coming up this Wednesday and the boy and I will be heading out to do something fun. I'm really looking forward to it. I need a fun night. I'm hoping to attend a great Christian concert next Friday, and I hope to continue to grow with my Savior. I will also be taking my senior pictures with my best friend, which is so bittersweet. Whatever this year holds I will be open to the changes, including any changes that come within myself.
I just had to get all this off my chest before I exploded. Thank you for taking the time to read this, you brave soul. Hopefully I didn't scare you off, and you'll continue to read my blog the next time I post. I hope you have a blessed night!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Worries
- I worry that I'm not good enough for anyone
- I worry that I won't be the best that I can be
- I worry that my family isn't proud of me and looks at me differently
- I worry about my parents
- I worry that you don't miss me as much as you used to
- I worry that my life is becoming complacent and I'm at a standstill
- I worry that God isn't proud of the person I'm becoming
- I worry that I'll never make it to where I want to be
- I worry that I'll never be the person that everyone thinks I should be
- I worry that all my relationships are going to fail
- I worry that my friends talk about me behind my back
- I worry that I don't know who is loyal and faithful to me
- I worry that I can't control my worrying
- I worry that I won't ever make it
- I worry about my health
- I worry about everyone else
- I worry about everything
I spend all my time worrying. I know that worrying does nothing. I know that God says, "Cast all your anxieties on me because I care for you (1Peter 5:7)." I worry when I know I really have nothing to worry about. But I can't help it. I've been doing it for so long now that it's a part of my nature. I'm human. I just wish I could stop all the worrying. I really do.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Smiley Rilee :)
Anyone who knows me knows my cousin, Rilee. You may not know her personally, but I ask for prayer for her all the time. If you don't know her situation, I'll give you a brief summation. She is thirteen years old - beautiful, funny, adorable. She is absolutely the cutest thing you'll ever meet. However, she has been in and out of the hospital for 7 years now. I don't know the specifics of it all, but she gets really excruciating headaches. So much so that sometimes she can't bear them. It really limits the things she can do. She's thirteen, ya know? She should be able to do all the things that a thirteen year old wants to do, but sometimes she just can't. The doctors are unsure of what is causing the headaches. She has to have procedures done almost every month, which isn't the way any child should have to live.
Right now, she is in the hospital having a spinal tap done to remove the fluid from her brain. When the fluid builds up it makes her headaches worse. She has been in the hospital for a few days now, and chances are she will have to travel to Ohio to see a specialist. This is a trip she has made a few times before. I know it can't be easy on her, her mom, or her dad.
The beautiful blessing in this situation is that Rilee knows God has a plan. During all this, she received Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior! Hallelujah! What a blessing! She knows that she has struggles, but she trusts that God has the ultimate plan for her life. She is only thirteen, and a lot of the time understanding the bigger plan is hard for her, but she hasn't given up. She is the toughest and bravest little girl I know. I couldn't be more proud of the young lady she has turned out to be. On her good days, she is able to get out and play and swim and just enjoy her life. On her bad days though, she is still trying to enjoy her life to the best of her abilities. She is an inspiration to me. She has the strength of an army. She isn't afraid of the future because she knows God is the one holding her future! I am so blessed she is a part of my life.
I am asking that you please continue to pray for her during this time in her life. Please, write her name down, Rilee Rhodes, on any prayer lists you have and remember her when you talk to God. She is a tough little cookie, but all prayers are appreciated. I strongly believe in the power of prayer! God is a miracle worker, and He does have her life already planned out. Just pray for her continued strength as she goes through each day. No matter what is ahead, God is in control. Thank you for reading this, and thank you for all your prayers!
God Bless!
Right now, she is in the hospital having a spinal tap done to remove the fluid from her brain. When the fluid builds up it makes her headaches worse. She has been in the hospital for a few days now, and chances are she will have to travel to Ohio to see a specialist. This is a trip she has made a few times before. I know it can't be easy on her, her mom, or her dad.
The beautiful blessing in this situation is that Rilee knows God has a plan. During all this, she received Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior! Hallelujah! What a blessing! She knows that she has struggles, but she trusts that God has the ultimate plan for her life. She is only thirteen, and a lot of the time understanding the bigger plan is hard for her, but she hasn't given up. She is the toughest and bravest little girl I know. I couldn't be more proud of the young lady she has turned out to be. On her good days, she is able to get out and play and swim and just enjoy her life. On her bad days though, she is still trying to enjoy her life to the best of her abilities. She is an inspiration to me. She has the strength of an army. She isn't afraid of the future because she knows God is the one holding her future! I am so blessed she is a part of my life.
I am asking that you please continue to pray for her during this time in her life. Please, write her name down, Rilee Rhodes, on any prayer lists you have and remember her when you talk to God. She is a tough little cookie, but all prayers are appreciated. I strongly believe in the power of prayer! God is a miracle worker, and He does have her life already planned out. Just pray for her continued strength as she goes through each day. No matter what is ahead, God is in control. Thank you for reading this, and thank you for all your prayers!
God Bless!
Friday, June 22, 2012
In Christ Alone...
I'm feeling so lead this morning to just boast about Jesus' unfailing, merciful, wonderful, perfect love and adoration for me. God sent HIS ONE AND ONLY SON to die a brutal, painful, and undeserving death on the cross to save a wretch like me. In reality, I should have been the one to take the punishment for the lifetime of sins I have committed. Instead, God sacrificed. That's what love is: sacrifice. He is the epitome of love. It isn't just what He does, it's who He is. I can't even brag about my love for Him because I fail Him every single day, but His love never fails.
I serve a MIGHTY God who is able to do anything. He is able to give me the world; He is able to take all things away. In Christ alone you can be delivered from any temption, challenge, obstacle, or situation that the world makes you face every day. He can deliver us. He was willing to send His son to die for us, yet we take that so lightly. This is God. He could strike us down with one word, but wouldn't do it because of the pure love He has for us, and we have chosen to make jokes about Him and refuse to serve Him. He deserves to be lifted high in praise and honor and glory. Everything you do in your life should be an active gift to God. He gave us the ultimate gift. Let your lifesong sing to Him.
I am no saint. I'm the chief of all sinners. I struggle so much with temptation and want. I couldn't even begin to tell you the challenges I'm faced with every day as a Christian. I have made decisions, decisions that make God so disappointed in me, that I am not proud of. I haven't had the boldness to stand up and say that I don't want to make those decisions. I don't want to compromise the purity that God has given my life. I want to be a HOLY vessel in the eyes of God. I have a lot of things to work on, but I'm willing to work on them because God deserves the HONOR and GLORY in EVERYTHING I do in my life.
He deserves to be worshiped and adored with every word we speak. We all get so careless with our words, myself included. We forget that God says the tounge causes destruction. Christians are looked at so much for the lives they lead in front of others, and that's a good thing. We need to be held accountable for our actions because we are supposed to be wearing the armor of God. We each need to try to be the best person we can be, turning away from sin when it tries to dictate our lives. Many people who aren't Christians choose not to be because of the way they see other "Christians" lead their lives. It makes me sick to think that someone has looked at my life and seen all the sin that I chose not to turn from and it turned them away from knowing their Creator. It makes me sick.
I have so many things holding me back from being the Christian I want to be. I have a heart for Christ. My lifesong just hasn't always sang that out in the right way. It's a choice and a fight every day to keep Godly things on your mind and in your heart. The devil will try to give you things that are satisfying for a season, but God's love is satisfying forever.
Let God, the Creator of the Heavens and the earth, the king of kings and the Lord of lords, the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end be the center of your life. Let Him lead you where He wants you to go following the plan He has for your life. Let God take your plan A and turn it into His plan B. It'll be a better life than you could have ever pictured for yourself. He wants what is best for you because He knows what is best for you. He is love and He is ALL you need. He will give you the greatest joys and pleasures and happiness you've ever experienced in your life. He will transform you into His reflection.
He promises eternal life to those who choose to follow and believe in Him. Salvation is the greatest gift anyone can receive. Jesus is ALIVE and REAL. He is all things good and powerful and mericful and mighty. He is an active part of your life. He wants to be your priority. He wants to be your true love. Once you let Him in, you won't ever want to let Him go. Let your lifesong sing to the One who made you. Let Him be pleased with all your works. Let Him be glorified by your actions, thoughts, and words. Let Him be the guiding force in your life. Let Him be your everything.
In Christ alone, you can do all things.
God bless you!
I serve a MIGHTY God who is able to do anything. He is able to give me the world; He is able to take all things away. In Christ alone you can be delivered from any temption, challenge, obstacle, or situation that the world makes you face every day. He can deliver us. He was willing to send His son to die for us, yet we take that so lightly. This is God. He could strike us down with one word, but wouldn't do it because of the pure love He has for us, and we have chosen to make jokes about Him and refuse to serve Him. He deserves to be lifted high in praise and honor and glory. Everything you do in your life should be an active gift to God. He gave us the ultimate gift. Let your lifesong sing to Him.
I am no saint. I'm the chief of all sinners. I struggle so much with temptation and want. I couldn't even begin to tell you the challenges I'm faced with every day as a Christian. I have made decisions, decisions that make God so disappointed in me, that I am not proud of. I haven't had the boldness to stand up and say that I don't want to make those decisions. I don't want to compromise the purity that God has given my life. I want to be a HOLY vessel in the eyes of God. I have a lot of things to work on, but I'm willing to work on them because God deserves the HONOR and GLORY in EVERYTHING I do in my life.
He deserves to be worshiped and adored with every word we speak. We all get so careless with our words, myself included. We forget that God says the tounge causes destruction. Christians are looked at so much for the lives they lead in front of others, and that's a good thing. We need to be held accountable for our actions because we are supposed to be wearing the armor of God. We each need to try to be the best person we can be, turning away from sin when it tries to dictate our lives. Many people who aren't Christians choose not to be because of the way they see other "Christians" lead their lives. It makes me sick to think that someone has looked at my life and seen all the sin that I chose not to turn from and it turned them away from knowing their Creator. It makes me sick.
I have so many things holding me back from being the Christian I want to be. I have a heart for Christ. My lifesong just hasn't always sang that out in the right way. It's a choice and a fight every day to keep Godly things on your mind and in your heart. The devil will try to give you things that are satisfying for a season, but God's love is satisfying forever.
Let God, the Creator of the Heavens and the earth, the king of kings and the Lord of lords, the alpha and omega, the beginning and the end be the center of your life. Let Him lead you where He wants you to go following the plan He has for your life. Let God take your plan A and turn it into His plan B. It'll be a better life than you could have ever pictured for yourself. He wants what is best for you because He knows what is best for you. He is love and He is ALL you need. He will give you the greatest joys and pleasures and happiness you've ever experienced in your life. He will transform you into His reflection.
He promises eternal life to those who choose to follow and believe in Him. Salvation is the greatest gift anyone can receive. Jesus is ALIVE and REAL. He is all things good and powerful and mericful and mighty. He is an active part of your life. He wants to be your priority. He wants to be your true love. Once you let Him in, you won't ever want to let Him go. Let your lifesong sing to the One who made you. Let Him be pleased with all your works. Let Him be glorified by your actions, thoughts, and words. Let Him be the guiding force in your life. Let Him be your everything.
In Christ alone, you can do all things.
God bless you!
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